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November 23, 2013


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*heavy sigh*

I really have no idea how to put this into words but I think this should be done. Some of my closest friends have known this and I feel like I should be telling of you guys now.

This week... has been a really drainful, hectic, stressful week. And it'll probably be my last week to be goofing and drawing around ;u;
Now let's start with every possible hectic thing that can happen to a girl in just one week.

1. I got the letter calling me to work. As you know, I'm about to be working as a medical doctor; doing my hell-ish internship for 2 years in the government hospital. I got the call, and I'll be going to a some sort of 'training/orientation' on the 25th Nov (that's tomorrow for me) and I'll start working the week after.
The dreadful hours, stressful environment of senior doctors have all be warned to me by my friends who had been working, so yes; I am leaving dA, and might as well put down the tablet pen for forever. Might be overdramatic in a sense, but I cannot see any chances I have left to even draw.
I'll leave this account alive nonetheless, but only with little art in my gallery, only the ones that I'm actually quite proud of.

2. Financial problems just got worst and worst. On one rainy day that is possibly the worst day of my life; the plaster ceiling in my living room fell. IT FUCKEN' FELL. and my house was literally flooded with water. really? on my last week of freedom?
Due to the roof leaking or sum sheit, the water kinda got trapped, hence the plaster ceiling falling off. We can barely managed to pay for the leaking roof, so my house still yes. have a giant hole on the ceiling.

Img-20131119-wa0000 by kai-choo

3. My cat, Tiger died 2 nights ago.
I'm sorry but I'm still tearing up typing this. My cat, barely 2 years of age, suddenly got sick, and after 2 freaking days, died after we submitted him in the animal medical center. The doctors suspected him having FIP (Feline Infectious Peritonitis). It just... happened so fast and I just don't know... I'm just...
Img-20131110-wa0000 by kai-choo

This was him. If you cat starts having fever, not eating or drinking and have trouble difficulty breathing, please be careful and get them to the vet.
And now I'm deeply paranaoid my other cats would develop this. TT_TT

So I guess that's it. The beginning of my stressful life and more stressful things to look forward to. There's all these emotions in me that I can't even begin to let out. I've never been that good in letting out so I'm just waiting for the time to really breakdown. haha *nervous laugh*

Anyways, i did planned to have a farewell livestream, but now you know why I can't or why I didnt have the time. I'm too busy wallowing in despair. So, yeah. I'm really sorry guys that we have to part this way.
And I really hope I haven't still owe anyone art, (except you, Hayden, omg i really should just refund you) and I have already contacted those that I can't finish their commissions in time so I can refund you back. Sorry I dunno English anymore and I can't type correctly so yeeah.

SO. yeah, I'll have to start packing now. I'm still stuck with this old lappy so I hope he can hold on for at least another 2 years. And I hope I would still keep my very little sanity and humanity left after this internship.

Lastly, I would just like to say my thanks for you guys for sticking around with me. It has been a wonderful journey and time here. And you guys were the one that made it that way. I hope that someday I can still come back and do what I love again.


p/s= I have no time to proof read this so sorry for any confusion.
and guys, PS4 looks so cool TToTT

-oh, and happy 50th Anniversary Doctor Who, i really hope the download would finish quickly and watch it before I go oTL
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SomberResonance Featured By Owner Jun 2, 2014  Student General Artist
hah my comment is lame and you'll probably never see it but-

I just wanted you to know that you're one of my greatest inspirations. I've always loved your art, your livestreams, your chibis, and your sense of humor. I wanted to be funny like you //shot and, of course, an amazing artist like you. Although I'm far from that goal, I just wanted you to know that you're one of those few people who have helped me realize that goal in the first place, and to motivate me to reach it. I'm sorry about your hectic life, but I really hope it gets better liek my art because you're important to me. So, live life well, and pick up the tablet once in awhile. 
NP9-HATAKE Featured By Owner Mar 20, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
TT^TT That's terrible... i'm sorry. and farewell.
but if you ever do have time...check in every once and a while. :)
PrinceOfFire Featured By Owner Jan 14, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
:icongoodluckplz: Good luck. Take care. Hopefully you might pop in once in a while.
LadyIssa07 Featured By Owner Dec 24, 2013
Sorry to hear about your loss with your kitty... Sad fayse.  Also the roof in your living room collapsing, same thing happened to my grandmother...ish. It was snow instead of rain, somehow the roof cracked (newly furnished roof and all) and the snow melting...horrible mess definitely. And congratulations on your internship by the ways! I understand that takes time to accomplish and can be stressful.

I admired and loved your artwork, definitely a unique style. I just hope you can return to drawing and art, you have a awesome talent you shouldn't let go to waste.'s understandable you have to cope with your stress, loss, your internship, and have to do you have to do. Hope to hear from you at least in the future, and good luck if you do see this! Thumbs Up 
ichan-desu Featured By Owner Dec 22, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I'm crying. Please at least write a journal every now and then, ofc only when you have the chance >o< /shot.
Although we don't really talk that much, I'm gonna miss u ;3; Thanks for sharing your wonderful talent with us! I :heart: u!
And I'm really sorry for your loss ;3;
Till next time kai! < 3
Megan-R Featured By Owner Dec 19, 2013  Student General Artist
I'm sorry for the loss of your cat but I wish you the best of luck with the internship 
dieonada Featured By Owner Dec 11, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
i know im massively late but and i know youll probably never get this but *hugs* i know youll get through this.
bai bai <3
melodicb4nter Featured By Owner Dec 8, 2013
So very sorry for your loss, and I wish you all the best in your life onward from here. Hug 
AshesFallen Featured By Owner Dec 7, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
hopefully we'll see you in 2 years, if not, thank you so much for being one of the artists who leave their art up! <3 Good luck with all your endeavors!
S-Lyanne Featured By Owner Dec 7, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Wow, that's a lot. Rough times come to us all, but try not to stress over everything if possible. One thing at a time. I hope you'll be able to continue your hobby once again at a later time, but there needs to be focus on what's really important first. I don't know if you'll be able to read all of the loving messages left for you, but good luck with everything. It sould be nice if you can blog every now and then and let all your fans know that you're doing well. Take care.
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