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*heavy sigh*

I really have no idea how to put this into words but I think this should be done. Some of my closest friends have known this and I feel like I should be telling of you guys now.

This week... has been a really drainful, hectic, stressful week. And it'll probably be my last week to be goofing and drawing around ;u;
Now let's start with every possible hectic thing that can happen to a girl in just one week.

1. I got the letter calling me to work. As you know, I'm about to be working as a medical doctor; doing my hell-ish internship for 2 years in the government hospital. I got the call, and I'll be going to a some sort of 'training/orientation' on the 25th Nov (that's tomorrow for me) and I'll start working the week after.
The dreadful hours, stressful environment of senior doctors have all be warned to me by my friends who had been working, so yes; I am leaving dA, and might as well put down the tablet pen for forever. Might be overdramatic in a sense, but I cannot see any chances I have left to even draw.
I'll leave this account alive nonetheless, but only with little art in my gallery, only the ones that I'm actually quite proud of.

2. Financial problems just got worst and worst. On one rainy day that is possibly the worst day of my life; the plaster ceiling in my living room fell. IT FUCKEN' FELL. and my house was literally flooded with water. really? on my last week of freedom?
Due to the roof leaking or sum sheit, the water kinda got trapped, hence the plaster ceiling falling off. We can barely managed to pay for the leaking roof, so my house still yes. have a giant hole on the ceiling.

Img-20131119-wa0000 by kai-choo

3. My cat, Tiger died 2 nights ago.
I'm sorry but I'm still tearing up typing this. My cat, barely 2 years of age, suddenly got sick, and after 2 freaking days, died after we submitted him in the animal medical center. The doctors suspected him having FIP (Feline Infectious Peritonitis). It just... happened so fast and I just don't know... I'm just...
Img-20131110-wa0000 by kai-choo

This was him. If you cat starts having fever, not eating or drinking and have trouble difficulty breathing, please be careful and get them to the vet.
And now I'm deeply paranaoid my other cats would develop this. TT_TT

So I guess that's it. The beginning of my stressful life and more stressful things to look forward to. There's all these emotions in me that I can't even begin to let out. I've never been that good in letting out so I'm just waiting for the time to really breakdown. haha *nervous laugh*

Anyways, i did planned to have a farewell livestream, but now you know why I can't or why I didnt have the time. I'm too busy wallowing in despair. So, yeah. I'm really sorry guys that we have to part this way.
And I really hope I haven't still owe anyone art, (except you, Hayden, omg i really should just refund you) and I have already contacted those that I can't finish their commissions in time so I can refund you back. Sorry I dunno English anymore and I can't type correctly so yeeah.

SO. yeah, I'll have to start packing now. I'm still stuck with this old lappy so I hope he can hold on for at least another 2 years. And I hope I would still keep my very little sanity and humanity left after this internship.

Lastly, I would just like to say my thanks for you guys for sticking around with me. It has been a wonderful journey and time here. And you guys were the one that made it that way. I hope that someday I can still come back and do what I love again.


p/s= I have no time to proof read this so sorry for any confusion.
and guys, PS4 looks so cool TToTT

-oh, and happy 50th Anniversary Doctor Who, i really hope the download would finish quickly and watch it before I go oTL
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SomberResonance Featured By Owner Jun 2, 2014  Student General Artist
hah my comment is lame and you'll probably never see it but-

I just wanted you to know that you're one of my greatest inspirations. I've always loved your art, your livestreams, your chibis, and your sense of humor. I wanted to be funny like you //shot and, of course, an amazing artist like you. Although I'm far from that goal, I just wanted you to know that you're one of those few people who have helped me realize that goal in the first place, and to motivate me to reach it. I'm sorry about your hectic life, but I really hope it gets better liek my art because you're important to me. So, live life well, and pick up the tablet once in awhile. 
NP9-HATAKE Featured By Owner Mar 20, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
TT^TT That's terrible... i'm sorry. and farewell.
but if you ever do have time...check in every once and a while. :)
PrinceOfFire Featured By Owner Jan 14, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
:icongoodluckplz: Good luck. Take care. Hopefully you might pop in once in a while.
LadyIssa07 Featured By Owner Dec 24, 2013
Sorry to hear about your loss with your kitty... Sad fayse.  Also the roof in your living room collapsing, same thing happened to my grandmother...ish. It was snow instead of rain, somehow the roof cracked (newly furnished roof and all) and the snow melting...horrible mess definitely. And congratulations on your internship by the ways! I understand that takes time to accomplish and can be stressful.

I admired and loved your artwork, definitely a unique style. I just hope you can return to drawing and art, you have a awesome talent you shouldn't let go to waste.'s understandable you have to cope with your stress, loss, your internship, and have to do you have to do. Hope to hear from you at least in the future, and good luck if you do see this! Thumbs Up 
ichan-desu Featured By Owner Dec 22, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I'm crying. Please at least write a journal every now and then, ofc only when you have the chance >o< /shot.
Although we don't really talk that much, I'm gonna miss u ;3; Thanks for sharing your wonderful talent with us! I :heart: u!
And I'm really sorry for your loss ;3;
Till next time kai! < 3
Flash-Bandit Featured By Owner Dec 19, 2013  Student Photographer
I'm sorry for the loss of your cat but I wish you the best of luck with the internship 
dieonada Featured By Owner Dec 11, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
i know im massively late but and i know youll probably never get this but *hugs* i know youll get through this.
bai bai <3
melodicb4nter Featured By Owner Dec 8, 2013
So very sorry for your loss, and I wish you all the best in your life onward from here. Hug 
AshesFallen Featured By Owner Dec 7, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
hopefully we'll see you in 2 years, if not, thank you so much for being one of the artists who leave their art up! <3 Good luck with all your endeavors!
S-Lyanne Featured By Owner Dec 7, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Wow, that's a lot. Rough times come to us all, but try not to stress over everything if possible. One thing at a time. I hope you'll be able to continue your hobby once again at a later time, but there needs to be focus on what's really important first. I don't know if you'll be able to read all of the loving messages left for you, but good luck with everything. It sould be nice if you can blog every now and then and let all your fans know that you're doing well. Take care.
theWriterMAB Featured By Owner Dec 7, 2013  Student Writer
Oh my gosh, so terribly sorry to hear all this happened to you! You don't deserve that. :c :hug:

I wish you the very best! And hope you'll come back again someday!
Dragonnotte Featured By Owner Dec 3, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Good bye Kai.
Sayonara and Best Wish !!
Zumigiri Featured By Owner Dec 3, 2013  Student Digital Artist
I'm 300 years too late and I guess you'll never read this anyway, but I wish you all the luck for your life, go and change the world, help people and make them healthy again. You'll be a great doctor ;u; you brought us all together, thank you for everything dear, ILU <3333333
Elnamis Featured By Owner Dec 2, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Sorry to hear you'll be leaving, but under the circumstances, its entirely understandable. ;3; Best of luck to you and many blessings.
slave2F8 Featured By Owner Dec 2, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
usagi-chan99 Featured By Owner Dec 2, 2013
read this over and over again.. im so sad to see one of my favs DA artists having so much trouble and bad luck. i have watched you for a very long time already and seeing you improve so much over the years. wish you didn't hide majority of your art work. they give me inspiration sometimes.  hope everything gets better for you. i pray that you will come back soon. you and your awesome art will be dearly missed. 
tenma15 Featured By Owner Nov 30, 2013
Aww, goodbye. >: Take good care.
Working as a medical doctor sounds very stressful on its own. I am studying a science degree and in my final year of study now.
Banana-peel Featured By Owner Nov 29, 2013  Hobbyist
I'm so sorry for those bad things....I have a cat myself. That's sooo sad, good luck with every thing. God bless!
TsuKatsujin Featured By Owner Nov 27, 2013
TT_TT *hugs* I'm so sorry about your week. Hope things get better and I'll miss you and your art! I really hope in 2 years I'll see you post on DA again. Much <3
vivalalulu95 Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2013  Student General Artist
You were one of my favorite all time artists here on DA since the moment I first discovered this website and you have been such a huge inspiration to me. I'll miss you so much and I wish you all the best in your future and that you eventually do get to come back and check out good 'ole Deviant Art again :)
annaoi Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I only read this now and I'm in tears T____T. I'm truly sad that your troubles and loss prevented you to do what you love, but I will always cherish your art :) :cry:. I really hope it gets better for you after this. You deserve to feel good and to get the good things in life. :)
Morriee217 Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2013
I Am Sorry To Hear. You'r Art Is Outragous, And Amazing. I Hope You Feel Better, And Everything Gets Back On Track. Just Keep You'r Head Up High. Hopefully Everything Will Get Better For You. When Everything Is Back On Track. All Of Us Will Be Waiting For You. C; *Gives Hug*
Reconyz Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I know you won't read this for a long time, if at all... But I'm going to miss you so much. I'm really sorry for everything that's happened this week. I know thins will be okay in the end for you. I can't wait to see you back on here!

God bless!
krusca Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2013  Professional General Artist
YO MAN im really sorry all this craps happened to you...I hope one day you'll have the time and energy to do what you love again! we'll all be here waiting for you! <333333333333333
Honeypenguin Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I am sorry for your loss and i hope you will become happy again soon.
And I hope you come back to us some day. We will wait..*hug*
ch-eei Featured By Owner Nov 25, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Even though I just followed your art this year ... Your art works are the best... I will still visit your page sometimes... I wish you luck... I'll miss your art... Good luck :' )
Time-Demon Featured By Owner Nov 25, 2013  Student General Artist
It's been a good time, Kai.  I really enjoyed your works and, I know the chances are slim, but I will keep on watchin' ya no matter what on DA.  I don't care if you're gone, 
Yukira3 Featured By Owner Nov 25, 2013
It's unfair that you had to go through all of this. I'm not sure how to put it with words but I followed you for 4 or 5 years now so I can say you made a lot of greats memories in my life. It's not you who have to thanks us, but us who will be always thanking you for sharing your beautiful and amazing world of art.

Really, thanks Kai.
We'll miss you.

PS : I'll keep this DA in fav' and check out cause I hope you'll find time and willing for drawing in the futur. 
Aeli-na Featured By Owner Nov 25, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I wish you good luck, rest in peace little Tiger :(
re-kii Featured By Owner Nov 25, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Hi, Kai. Thanks for sharing your art. :) It's been a wonderful journey with you. Nonetheless, I still hope that you'll be able to keep doing what you love. 

Best of luck and take care always! 
Friend-Owl Featured By Owner Nov 24, 2013
Just saying, you've always been one of the most inspiring people ever for me here on deviantART. I found you through the New Generation, and I just love everything in your gallery, even little doodle things. I feel like a dork but your comments and reactions would make me giggle or crack up laughing. I love all of your characters, and your coloring style. Idk what else to say, you're great, and I hope the best for you Kai <3
strawberry-girl-hero Featured By Owner Nov 24, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
its been a good ride with you and now, though it saddens me, this is where we will bid our farewells. Good luck
Asaraa Featured By Owner Nov 24, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
It's been a good time Kai. I'm so sorry for your loss and all your struggles. Nobody deserves it... I guess thats just how life is. Cruel. 
I wish you good luck in the future. And know that you can always come back to dA to your loving fans!
winryie Featured By Owner Nov 24, 2013
Sorry to hear about all your troubles...I really hope that things improve soon! We'll welcome you back with open arms if you ever do decide to return to dA, but until then (if that time comes), take care! I wish you the best of luck with your life C: :huggle:
KairiLy Featured By Owner Nov 24, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
!!! Nooo!!! You were one of my favorite artists here on deviant art, in fact sorta like my mentor (except there's no communication i just sorta look at your art and get inspired). Well I understand your circumstances and I get where you're coming from. Although I Don't work, school work is a bummer. Maybe with time the stress will go down and things might shape up! Hopefully that time will come and maybe one day you'll return to DA! In the mean time I'll be hoping for you life to turn up to a brighter side!!

Really sorry about your cat ;A;
leekbutt Featured By Owner Nov 24, 2013
best of luck to you ; v ;<3
megan033 Featured By Owner Nov 24, 2013
I'm so sorry for all of your stress, I'll miss seeing your art :( I hope you get the chance to draw again sometime in the future. Good luck!
SayuriXXI Featured By Owner Nov 24, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I'm so sorry for all that's happened to you this week, believe me I know the feeling :c Really hope that everything goes well from now on, that you have a bright future ahead of you because you certainly deserve it :) Will miss your art a lot, seeing it always inspired me to do some of my own and keep improving. Always find a little time to do what you love, life has no meaning if you don't. Once again wish you the best! :3 Will always love your art!
Genevieve124 Featured By Owner Nov 24, 2013   General Artist

God bless you and since this all happened at once, so soon, you know that

 after this is over everything will become better than you originally thought possible.

Aztec-Monkey Featured By Owner Nov 24, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Kaiii I still don't understand how some of the worst luck can happen to such a nice, sweet person. :'<
I want to thank you for sharing your time and art with us and wish you good luck out there in the field, we'll all miss you, your streams, your art, your everything very much! ;;
And r.i.p Tiger, poor little guy :(
4eyesneko Featured By Owner Nov 24, 2013
Good luck, my tiger rest in peace, and the roof to be fixed and may your hand would never be rusty if you wish to draw once more!
Otakucouture Featured By Owner Nov 24, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Good luck man, I understand the feeling.
ZANiTY-SENPAi Featured By Owner Nov 24, 2013
Best of luck in the future, friend!
LoopyPanda Featured By Owner Nov 24, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I'm sorry you had such a terrible week, that takes the cake in Worst Weeks Ever. 
But we wish you best of luck, and hope Dr. Kai gets to do all that snazzy doctor stuff (I might be in your place someday, I aspire to specialize into diagnostic Radiology). We're all gonna miss you a whole lot, but we'll be supporting you in spirit and hope you hurdle over those pesky obstacles in life that really test our nerves (and sanity).
Goodbye and good luck, Kai! :huggle:
ccoolchic1 Featured By Owner Nov 24, 2013   Writer
sorry about your cat. :C I had a cat named sniffles who sneezed a lot & he was only a kitten.. My mum found him dead on my front porch. :/ since then every time one of our cats sneeze we always give them pills to help them be ok. My bf has a cat named tiger that looks like your cat. XD Thought that was cool. I'll miss your stuff on DA, but good luck with everything :/
Kira-15 Featured By Owner Nov 24, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I'm sorry that all of this had to happen with in a week. 
I wish you the best of luck in you internship. I really enjoyed your art and livestreams. They were always fun. 
We will all miss you. Hopefully someday you do come back.
x--KCK--x Featured By Owner Nov 24, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I wish you the best of luck in your future endeavors, and I sincerely hope that your stress level will gradually lower in the oncoming years. It has been an honor to witness your art and talent on this site. Many condolences to you for your loss, as well. Such unfortunate timing for all of these events to be taking place. Nevertheless, you will be missed on dA, that much is certain. Please take care of yourself and never give up!
xKuroRavenx Featured By Owner Nov 24, 2013
Good luck.
I hope things start working out for you.
I hope you have a chance to come back some day.
We'll miss you.

denya-chan Featured By Owner Nov 24, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
OMG I can't believe you're actually leaving!! TT A TT
I really really really reeeeaaallyyy hope you will be back again!! :heart:
You're one of my favourite artists here on dA!! ; ^ ;
Well...good luck and...and...AND I'LL FREAKING MISS YAAA!!! :iconcryforeverplz: Don't die on me....
Btw, don't you think you'll have time for drawing just a little? Just...a little..? Please!! \(TT A TT)/
elaetinuviel Featured By Owner Nov 24, 2013  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
I hope you all the best for this new path that you are taking, I know it will be stressfull but try to take everything as it comes and learn to leave it behind, I really hope you don't stop drawing, for it will help you take your mind out of the hospital, and I assure you, you're gonna need it from time to time, and don't worry to much, I'm sure you are gonna do great. Hope to see you again sometime :iconbackhug:
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